Complications is beyond control

I received a sms on Wednesday afternoon... i got so shocked after reading it i don't know how to react to the sms about 5minutes... the sms says "Due to some complications Owen has left peacefully yesterday"... Owen was the name my friend wanted to name her baby...Owen was expected to come to this world next month and be the happiest baby in the world coz alot of people is going to sayang him alot...everyone is guessing who will he look like...the father with small cute eyes or the mother with big beautiful eyes? Everyone were so looking forward to it but this news was really uncalled for... i never expect this will happen to her...no one has expected this... my eyes was almost tearing when i read the sms again and again to make sure i read it correctly... if not the fact i was in office i guess i've cried...
But my dear friend was very brave and strong...she and her husband made the decision... and they accepted the fact... i guess this is the hardest decision to make on earth but short term pain is better than long term... better to leave peacefully then suffer... like pipes all over the body... and not sure how long they have to suffer in their life... I think Owen is blessed that he does not need to suffer much...
Hopefully my dear friend is able to recover both mentally & physically and prepare for a new beginning...
I also hope Owen will really RIP in heaven...

无奈

无奈 is the word to expressed my feeling now... sometimes when you are in this situation... you really don't know what else you can do coz you don't have a choice... No to be precise you can't make your own choice... that's the worst thing in life... when you cannot decide what you can choose and you have to ask permission of others when you know this kind of things is best leave it to the hero and heroin of the Day...
people keep telling me this... life is not perfect... you can't satisfied everyone... in this case...the only person that is not satisfied is myself... not others...
sometimes i'm wondering...does this Day belongs to myself & my loved one...or it belongs to others? i often telling myself...this is my Day... and i want to follow my way... but in real life is not true... you have to satisfied everyone else...in the end your own self is not happy... is this the right way or don't care what they think just follow what my heart says?? i'm confused... in dilemma... i guess in this society there are a lot of boundaries...a lot of social responsibilities that makes you "must do something and or must not do something"... i know i can insist on what i want...i just need to face other people's saying "do know how to respect elderly or parents"... or "ng sek zhou yan"... i don't mind people to say this if that makes me happy and i get what i want... but i don't want these things to go to my parents especially my mom...she will be upset and think that she didn't bring me up well...

Lost you forever!!

I still cannot accept the fact that my phone got stolen in the office...
The fact that this f*cking old man took it from my table and walked out just like that...cursed him million times in my heart that he won't have good day after taking my phone...curse him that he will suffered for the rest of his life because he was a theft!!!!! Curse him so hard that i hope he will be run down by a car/lorry/motorcycle but that's too easy for him... perhaps he should choke while eating bean curd and suffocate & die!! curse him that he'll never get to f*ck anymore whenever he wants it... curse him that he will get stroke and paralyze both his hands that he can't move anymore...
I was almost tearing yesterday but i tried hard to control for not letting it down coz it was due to my ONE & ONLY TIME carelessness...due to the ignorant people in the office that no one has actually bothered to ask why was he loitering around in the office and the fact that he is unknown to everyone...
i hate this word "assume"... assume can really kill...

End of the day i've lost k810i forever and ever... my beloved photos are gone...my beloved music inside the phone is gone... no more...is gone... no more.... is gone...

Roadshow @ Pan Pacific Hotel KLIA

Yesterday we went all the way down to meet our Group CEO...
Myself, Cindy sat on Adeline's car and we left office around 3pm...
The journey took us 1 hour 15 minutes including some waiting at bangsar lrt to pick up Sean...
Group Public Affairs sent out a note earlier on to remind everyone to reach Pan Pacific no later than 4:15pm...
We reached there just nice at 4:10pm...
luckily they served refreshments i.e. fried vermicelli and deep fried spring roll else we'll be in deep hunger during the roadshow...
300 staffs came all the way down to see his presentation for 1.5 hours, half an hours of Q&A...
After the presentation we left KLIA and took us 1.5 hours to reached bangsar again to drop Sean...
We headed to BSC thought if we can eat chili's but it was really full and we have to wait really long...
we then walked to La Bodega and it was also full house... left us with no choice we sat down at Dome as we were all starving...
All the hassle we have gone through to meet him...worthy or not? i really don't know

Unsleepable Appointment

I've been going to this place called 'Nails Should Do' to do my eyelash extension... every time when i'm lying on that very uncomfortable bed for 2-3hours i'll fall asleep for sure... usually after 45 minutes of closing my eyes and the soothing music... i'll be in dreamland...today is exceptional... why? next to my bed there was this malay lady... apparently the beautician that did her lash is quite friendly and chatty... so both of them have been chatting non-stop for their entire session... it is disturbing becoz...sorry if i'm being mean (not to say my england very power hehe)... the beautician's england is quite broken in some ways...but i have to salute him as he has the guts to talk fluently... they went on and on talking about A-Z...from bangkok to current social security issues for 2 hours using their england....can u imagine?... sorry but no sorry...this is not considered as eavesdropping coz they were pretty loud... the objective of this topic is to complaint that i didnt get my sleeping time there...heheheh... before i went for my session... i was thinking to myself that i could catch some sleep there... reason why is becoz i tried my very best to pull myself outta the bed this morning...that's why i grumbled... and also their topics aren't interesting for me to eavesdrop...and their england also another thing... so so so... but luckily today my session pretty short...so i get to go run some errands right before i head home...

I had my ears flushed!

This morning i went to Chong Dispensary...i waited 1hr to see the doctor....
when i went in to the room... doctor asked the nurse to give me some ear drops on both my ears...
the experience on eardrop is scary!! nothing i can hear except watering sound...
then after 10mins on eardropping doctor came to me... checked out my ears and injected water into my ears to flush out the harden ear wax... the water was so strong that it hurts... and i felt myself as though i'm drowned... n at a moment i cant breathe...
i screamed softly when it hurts... doctor became slightly more gentle... after tat i could see the harden ear wax came out... yuckssss.... i didnt know it became harden and it is in piece... like a brown color skin...
my shirt got abit wet... hehehe... abit embarrassed to walk back to office...

First entry +scary dog barking

Part 1
My first blog in the entire life... errr... actually i posted 'i had my ears flushed' first then only i realized that i'm suppose to write some sort of celebrating words for my first blog... anyways...
bebe laughed at my england... i know i'm not good at writing... i'm just a silly meow...
i just feel like typing whatever not here... actually i have nonsense too... just that normally i'll keep it to myself or i'll tell bebe... simply crap something to manja him....then he thinks i'm so cute and he'll kiss me.... kekekke... that's my tactic... to make him love me more n more...
apparently his ex-es don't like to manja him... but i'm different...hehehe... i'll manja him to the max...so he love me most!!!!
Part 2
the dog outside was crying... it's a bad sign... he was running away and crying as though he is seeing something scary like 'dirty things'... according to old people when a dog barks like this means they saw the 'dirty things'... this is not good!! i've been having this feeling that cs's dad's spirit is in the house... i've some bad night sleeps ever since his dad passed away... i'm not sure why i'm so afraid of this but it just scares the hell outta me everytime i think of it... i'm scared to be alone in the room at night...sometimes even day time coz i heard something... i know is not hallucination... i'm quite sure i heard someone closing the room door... i'm quite sure i heard someone knocked the door twice... but but but... bebe apparently don't believe me on what i've heard... he thought i'm just full of imagination...
i wish i'm just full of imagination...